My emotional day

Sometimes I think it is good to listen to a sad song and just all the emotions flow out. it feels good afterward.

: Death, his press from the news paper.

http://chronicle.augusta.com/news/metro/2010-09-17/sergeant-dies-iraq

Death

How do you deal with death? My mind runs wild when I think about the phone call I got this week about a friend who's husband deployed with mine. He died Thursday morning, of noncombat related issues, but not the less torture. For about an hour after hearing the news I couldn't do anything but walk in circles, my mind just wasn't working. I still can't imagine the emotion that would hit me after hearing that kind of news. This picture to the left is of his little girl on the day of his departure to Iraq. they are a wonderful family with lots of love. Please if anyone reads this, pray for this family and the soldiers who new him.

One of the most heart tugging days ever. My emotions were all over the place, I was ok until I hug him, then it was like letting open the flood gates. I just kept thinking "how is this going to affect the kids". I can gladly say that it has not been as bad as I thought.
Both kids love to see their dad on the computer wether it be on SKYPE or and old video recording. it is a happy day in our house when we get to talk to dad.

Expressing my feelings

Realizing how mush it helps to vent how I feel, I am hopping this will help. it is much better the relieving stress at the gym and feeling like I am going to cry every time I get on the treadmill.

I was thinking this morning about how from the outside I may look normal and look at peace, but there are time when that is just all good makeup. I feel lately that yes most of the time I am good and way better off then some others, but I still think that this is getting harder and my feelings are getting harder to deal with. it has only been two weeks and I already need a hug, I want so badly to smell him right next to me.

this last year may have gone by quick but I don't feel that it was very eventful, I hope I can change that about this coming year.

hows it going

So Weston is finaly home and I am so happy for it to be that way. I missed him so much, Glenn was also very happy, It was very cute to hear him from the other room, "DADDY!!!". 

We have had a pretty calm week but a nice long weekend and a fun, food filled easter day. 

Daddy Gone.

So Weston left on Wednesday, when I look back I was surprisingly calm about him leaving for a month, most of the time I get cranky and upset about the whole thing. This time I was different, which is a good thing. I thank all of those who have been praying for us, it has working with many blessing at our house. 

One thing I wanted to try and do while Weston was gone this month was to get Erica sleeping through the night. the first night we tried this I was more worried about Glenn waking up then Erica crying. So I didn't make very long before I went to go get her from her crib. but I just patted her back to sleep and the rest of the night went OK. This is how the next night went as well, finally I just kept her in out room and rocked her back to sleep when she would wake. BUT guess what happened last night, Saturday night the 14 she slept all night in her crib! I was so excited. Now I just hope it wasn't a fluke and she continues to have wonderful nights like this more often.

It helps to pass the time by keeping ourselves busy, I try and take the kids out, go to friends house's or to the park, go and get our shopping done what ever it is, and now that the sun is shinning more and the weather is nicer I am letting Glenn go outside more and more which helps with getting him out and about instead of stuck in the house. I am really proud with how well he is behaving, He is takes naps with  little or no wining at all and going to bed has been a wonderful Glenn and mommy time. One thing I always notice is how little he talks about dad when he is gone but the moment we see another man or dad he is stuck to him like glue. So you know he craves that time with his daddy.

 So before I forget, I want to remember this moment, Sunday the 15Th of March 2009, at 3 pm in the afternoon, I put both of my children down for naps and they are still sleeping! I already have my dishes and laundry done and most of my house is clean. So I can just relax!! (Please Lord let this happen more often!)

Blessing to all!! enjoy your day, Elizabeth

How much better can these pictures get? I just love them all!!

So today was the first time I put Erica in her bassinet to sleep for her nap starting out awake. It took her only five min of crying to fall asleep. I was so happy. Maybe this means training her to sleep at night in her crib won't be such a big deal.