Sunday, September 19, 2010

My emotional day

Sometimes I think it is good to listen to a sad song and just all the emotions flow out. it feels good afterward.

: Death, his press from the news paper.

Friday, September 17, 2010


How do you deal with death? My mind runs wild when I think about the phone call I got this week about a friend who's husband deployed with mine. He died Thursday morning, of noncombat related issues, but not the less torture. For about an hour after hearing the news I couldn't do anything but walk in circles, my mind just wasn't working. I still can't imagine the emotion that would hit me after hearing that kind of news. This picture to the left is of his little girl on the day of his departure to Iraq. they are a wonderful family with lots of love. Please if anyone reads this, pray for this family and the soldiers who new him.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

One of the most heart tugging days ever. My emotions were all over the place, I was ok until I hug him, then it was like letting open the flood gates. I just kept thinking "how is this going to affect the kids". I can gladly say that it has not been as bad as I thought.
Both kids love to see their dad on the computer wether it be on SKYPE or and old video recording. it is a happy day in our house when we get to talk to dad.

Expressing my feelings

Realizing how mush it helps to vent how I feel, I am hopping this will help. it is much better the relieving stress at the gym and feeling like I am going to cry every time I get on the treadmill.
I was thinking this morning about how from the outside I may look normal and look at peace, but there are time when that is just all good makeup. I feel lately that yes most of the time I am good and way better off then some others, but I still think that this is getting harder and my feelings are getting harder to deal with. it has only been two weeks and I already need a hug, I want so badly to smell him right next to me.
this last year may have gone by quick but I don't feel that it was very eventful, I hope I can change that about this coming year.
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