My wonderful kids. The other day we went out for a walk in our unfinished neighborhood. It was in the mid 90's but it wasn't so bad because there was a nice breeze. Were all quite hot when we returned home.

The are are some Mothers day pictures we got taken by a friend. I really liked them. what do you think?

Westons new car. But i get to drive it tell he gets home. this was a fun afternoon.

Potty trained and attitudes, OH MY!!!

I am about to go nuts with excitement and frustration! Erica is now potty trained and sleeps in underwear with no problems. But she is also getting an attitude. She like to tell me no and be stubborn. she isn't eating much, and all of these things drive me nuts.

I am also not good with little sleep, so if I choose to go to bed late it is my fault, but what is worse is me going to bed late and then a child waking up early and not wanting to go back to bed. So Monday I took a quick hour nap, but then that night I could not fall asleep and was awake till a little after midnight, then Weston called and wanted to ask a question about our bank. So I didn't manage to get sleep till after 1. AHHH then Erica woke at 4:30 ish I was so not in a good mood. if you know me well, you know I am not a very nice person when I have little sleep. and that means my children suffer. Sorry kids!

Eight months and counting!

We are still in our long and hard deployment and I am ready for it to be over. My kids ask for daddy all the time and I long for the day I can have him hold me again. Though I have learned and experienced many things thus far, I would rather not have to go through it.

I am still thinking and dealing with the choice of wanting another baby, do I , don't I . harder then you might think. Do I go for a career and continue to just be a stay at home home.

there are times I wish we didnt buy such a large home. I hate cleaning it!

But my kids are amazing, and there are times I think about what troopers they have both been. pretty sure I have had a harder time with this then them.

Feeling cheated

I know that this must sound like I have jealousy issues, But I feel angry that now in days anyone with a nice new camera and computer smarts can go and call them self's a photographer. in ten years the photography industry will be gone cause you will be able to do it yourself or ask you neighbor to do them. Why would I want to get into a field where there is so much competition. Now granted I have been taking pictures for as long as I can remember, and sadly I feel that I have improved a little, but not as much as I would like. I know that is because I personally haven't taken the time or spent the money to do so, But I am always trying to do more. Maybe I am just not good at this hobby. Either way I think there should be criteria for calling yourself a professionally paid photographer, or at least how much you get paid. ( those pictures above, I think they look better larger. )

Erica through 2010

Glenn in 2010

The year is almost over!!

I am having a hard time believing that the year is almost gone and a new one is about to start. It really doesn't feel that long that ago that we were in our friends living room watching football and drinking. Sometimes I think this year has gone by quickly and other times it feels as it has dragged on slower then molasses. Really so many things have happened this year I don't even remember them all.

We started this year off thinking about Weston's up coming deployment and how we would prepare for this life changing event. Sadly I think this year marks the highest known deaths of people I know. That has been a real thinker for me. We put Glenn in school this last fall for three days a week and has done very well. It is very exciting to see your child grow and learn, all while making connections of their own. I celebrated my 25th birthday and I tried to go all out, I still had a blast. Themed parties are the way to go! My children have changed so much. Glenn understands so much more now and learns something new everyday. He knows his ABC's and we are working on his numbers. Erica has gone from my baby girl to my little girl. She has more hair and talking so much more. Every month she has changed, it just amazes me to look back at her physical and mental changes.

I remember in August thinking how long our first year here in Augusta had taken. We had much less going on here during our first year then we had in Italy or our first year in marriage. I felt miserable, my Husband was leaving and I felt that I had nothing to look forward to other then him coming home, which was an awful 10 months away!

In November I was able to get away and attend the International PWOC women's conference in Texas. it was such a powerful and amazing weekend with God. I was reminded that I am never alone, and if I need a friend, I need to let my wall down and call someone. I am praying more and let go of the guilt and frustrations of not always having my quite time. I know it is important but I know God is my friend not a dictator.

Yesterday was four months since Weston left. I am so thankful that time is going fast. But i miss him so much. The love of my life is so far away and all I want is his a hug.

Another thing that I miss is Italy. The culture there was so different, that at times it was hard. Yet all I want is to back, I miss the closeness of the relationships we had there and never feeling alone. I miss the food, the travel and my life. Even though the US is "Home" is was hard coming back here. there is less to do here. I don't know really how to describe it, but if you are military then I think you will understand, if you have ever been overseas. Here most people are out to serve themselves and in Europe I got a very different feeling. I thought coming to the South I would see that "Southern Hospitality", well I have yet to see or experience that, I know it must have so much to do with that I live in a town that is a melting pot, that being that Augusta has really grown around the military base.

Well two days till we walk into a new year and can start anew. what will you do? do you have any special dreams for the upcoming year? Sad to say, but seeing this year come to a end really kinda makes me sad. Like watching a sad movie. :(

Two months?!

Has it really only been two months. Well some times you could say it has gone by fast but other times it feels like this long trek is going to take forever. and now that the party's are over and I really don't have anymore planning to do, i don't see this going much faster. I feel so far from him and now that he is getting busy I don't really feel us connecting like I would want to. maybe this is a personal problem or maybe this is a we problem. I don't know right now but i need to figure out a way to bond over a long distance. I was thinking 20 Questions or the newly wed game. any ideas? But if I feel like this now I worry about how I would feel seven months from now. which is just way to long to wait for a hug from the man you love.